I have been dreaming about you for nights
awaiting the moment
to submerge myself in warm water
I have been longing for the darkness
of a tub
with a single candle
For the moment when
I have the time
to fully enjoy
rather than to try
And so I wait
for the moment
when all there was
was a tub
where I could lay
and tell all
where I could drink
to nourish me
and where i could sing
Blessed New Moon in Pisces, dear ones.
These last few days of the waning moon have been interesting for me. For the first time that I can remember, I have been missing the moon. I have been longing for her light, almost pining in anticipation for her to return.
I have become to used to seeing her by the seashore when I walk my dog at sunset...I feel joy at seeing her first sliver of light return and in watching her as she grows full in the sky, reaching higher, and then descending parallel to the sun in her fullness, slowing descending deeper away from the horizon line as she wanes in light...
I miss her. I simply miss her.
In these days approaching the new moon I have watched my resistance to the dark-moon phase of my inner landscape. I have noticed aversion to the necessary seclusion at this time, aversion to the haunting thoughts of the mind, aversion to the anger and frustration that reveal themselves before the new moon time of my own body.
I am remembering that this phase is as much a part of the moon as is all her other phases of light. This phase of darkness is equal in worth to all the rest, albeit it's undeniable differences from the other lunar phases. How can I still know her, how can I still be near this Beloved Moon, even when I can no longer see her light?
This cycle for me is one of learning to let go, again, perpetually. To be with the darkness of the mind without fear. To know it is not me, but something I am observing. To give space for it. To listen to it. To comfort it, and to love it.
I am wishing you all a very blessed new moon, and with much anticipation I await the return of the light.
Do you ever have that part of your creative process where you’re just about ready to jump out of your skin unless you make yourself sit down and create something?
I have been feeling this angst, this low-boil under my skin that can only be satisfied through structure and discipline, through sitting down and working for hours with my hands on my craft.
It’s an interesting balance within the creative process, structure and flow…
For in some ways, my creative process is about being able to surrender to the timeless space and walk on the beach for hours, watching the myriad of lights on the ever changing tides, admiring the sun and then the moon…moving slowly as if I have all of eternity, and as if all of eternity is right here. My creative process is in mossy wanders through the forest, where the floor is covered leaves and bright orange salamanders, and where underneath the dark-green pointed leaves of wintergreen there are berries for the tasting. I love looking at Partridge Berry and Wintergreen and deciphering which one has the pig nose, which one will give me that crisp minty flavor and which will be mild mush with a few hard seeds. Both lovely. Both connecting me to place. For it’s these moments that I live for, the ones where I am simply human, and nothing matters beyond my meander by the woods or the sea.
And yet - the urge to create. The urge that comes from many days of wander and timeless bliss, where a voice inside me shouts, “It’s time to DO SOMETHING”, “You need to MAKE SOMETHING WITH YOUR TIME”, “Look at all this time that is going by that you could have been creating beautiful things, and feeling accomplished about them!”. The melancholy that comes from days without creation where I wash the laundry but only fold it halfway. I see the discomfort in my environment around me - I stop completing tasks fully: there’s a sweater hanging over the chair, the dishes are in the sink, the laundry is in-between the wash and the dresser - and I realize that if I don’t sit down and make something, the days of blissful wander are no longer. Instead they are being encroached upon by spirits of inertia, lethargy, and lostness. I have to rescue myself through discipline. I just need to begin. And once I begin, once I start that first project, I begin to regulate. I realize the longing I had for my craft, the lostness I felt in being apart, and how much I need a creative outlet to feel that I have a place in this world. That I have something to show for my being here.
Today I begin again. I am ready to sit down with my hands and create. And I can only hope that the beauty I received from the sun and the sky and the waves on the horizon can be honored in the images that flow through my hands. That people may look at my creations with wonder and awe, and that there be a spark of magic in the exchange.
You may notice that on the top page of the Lunar Mandala Calendar there are little symbols next to the date every 2-3 days or so. These symbols represent the signs of the zodiac that the moon is moving through.
Traditionally the signs of the zodiac, or Zoidion, were regarded as the homes of the planets. Each planet has a sign or two that is its home. Different planets are also said to have dignity in the houses of other planets, for instance, Mars is exalted in Saturn's home of Capricorn and the Moon is exalted in Venus' sign of Taurus.
When reading a natal chart, looking at what dignity a planet has can give information as to how much strength a planet has to be themselves within the context of a person's life.
The moon is the fastest and swiftest moving planet in the sky. She moves from sign to sign about every 2.5 days. Tracking her movement through the signs, as well as the aspects she makes with other planets, can provide a qualitative picture of what type of energy to expect day-to-day.
Below you will find a diagram of the zodiacal symbols and the signs they represent. If you don't already have the symbols memorized, take a few minutes to write your own key. The practice of writing the symbols down will help you memorize what they signify!
Aries: Masculine, Fire. Home of Mars. Moveable/Cardinal
Taurus: Feminine, Earth. Home of Venus. Solid/Fixed
Gemini: Masculine, Air. Home of Mercury. Double-bodied/Mutable
Cancer: Feminine, Water. Home of the Moon. Moveable/Cardinal
Leo: Masculine, Fire. Home of the Sun. Solid/Fixed
Virgo: Feminine, Earth. Home of Mercury. Double-bodied/Mutable
Libra: Masculine, Air. Home of Libra. Moveable/Cardinal
Scorpio: Feminine, Water. Home of Mars. Solid/Fixed
Sagittarius: Masculine, Fire. Home of Jupiter. Double-bodied/Mutable
Capricorn: Feminine, Earth. Home of Saturn. Moveable/Cardinal
Aquarius: Masculine, Air. Home of Saturn. Solid/Fixed
Pisces: Feminine, Water. Home of Jupiter. Double-bodied/Mutable
Here's a super simple tutorial on how to read a Lunar Calendar. It may be easier than you think!
If you have any questions, be sure to post them in the comments below! I am happy to guide you in reading your calendar.
People are always asking me about the symbolism of the lunar cycles and what the rational is behind setting intentions on the new moon. Here is a super short and simple explanation of these two things. Of course there is more depth to the topic, but I wanted to offer a basic overview. Hope you enjoy!
One last piece I forgot to mention in the video is that it's the really simple things we do everyday that can have profound impact on our lives. It is AMAZING how simple things like drinking enough water, getting enough sleep, and getting to bed on time can do for a person's sense of vibrancy, self-worth, grounded-ness, and well-being! If we take the time do intend to do one thing that nourishes us for one cycle, and then another, and another, these little cycles of self-kindness can bring deep nourishment in the long run.
I've been asked to make some short videos describing some of the ways that I incorporate the Lunar Mandala Calendar into my daily life. Here is the first in a series.
There are many ways to work with the moon's cycle in your life.
One of my favorite ways of working with my Lunar Mandala Calendar is in charting my menstruation. I take notes of the quality of my flow from month to month so that I can best support my body to come into better balance.
Here's a short video describing some of my personal practice.
Do you chart your cycle with the moon?
Have you noticed a difference since you've started doing this?
How do you like to tend to your menstrual health and wellness?
I'd love to hear your stories! Leave a comment in the box below.